Seedling honey,soo sorry to hear you have been having a bad time,a split can be so upsetting and very frightening some times.It can also be the best thing that ever happened to you,i hope it is the latter.
I split many years ago from my 1st babies daddy and it took me a very long time to get over it as i was still in love with him,but he wasnt the right person to stay with and bring a child up with.I took me all my strength to make the decision,but i knew it was the right one.
I found it hard at first,but threw my self into work and a group called Gingerbread for single parents.I met lots of fantastic people and really started to enjoy life.I met my now husband 3 yrs later and have not looked back since,he can be a right pain sometimes,but cant we all,I love him too bits,he is so supportive and encourages me to do things i never thought i was capable of.We now have 3 fantastic children together and i wouldnt change a thing.
I saw my ex last year and couldnt believe what i used to see in him
I hope things work out for you
Have a very Merry xmas and a very happy life