Funny feeling

[Motherwoman]

I feel sort of odd today. What, odder than normal? Yes, odder than normal. Apart from holding a conversation with myself, I have a feeling of unease, of something forgotten, or left undone, just generally not quite right with my world.

Is it me? Am I out of sync? Anyone else have one of those days? What causes it?

MW

[Primrose]

Yes, I know that feeling and the irritating thing is that although everything is generally OK with your own little world, there seems to be little enthusiasm or a feeling of ease within yourself.

I have finally worked out what triggers it for me. It,s the colour of the sky, No matter how cold it may be in the depth of winter, if the sky is blue and the sun is shining, psychologically I am ok. But if the sky is grey, there are low clouds and low light levels without sunshine, i find myself feeling physically low, totally de-energised and ill at ease with myself.

Thank heavens I don't live in Siberia or one of the other regions where it can be dark throughout the winter. I don,t think I'd survive. No wonder they have so many alcoholics!!

[Chantal]

Hi MW, I know exactly what you mean and in my case it's usually a harbinger of something unexpected and not good that's about to happen.

My most memorable one was waking at 1am, feeling so uneasy, but with no idea why. I kept dosing, but didn't completely fall asleep as I was so convinced that some disaster was about to befall. So, when I heard an extremely petrified "alarm cluck" at 4.30am I was out of bed and down the garden before the fox that had Alex my (free range living outside) cockerel in his mouth had managed to turn around. I grabbed a fallen apple, hurled it at the fox, got a direct hit and he dropped Alex who ran away and escaped. The fox was so shocked it ran away in the opposite direction. All this within 2 minutes of waking!

I've had other days of anxiety/unease and no good has ever come of them, but nothing that happened could have been predicted.

I hope your unease passes without trouble.

[oldherbaceous]

Dear Motherwoman, i get those feelings too, i put it down to when i've been overloaded with jobs or requests. I think i have a job procesing everything properly, so there's something inside not quite in balance...not sleeping very well leaves me like that on the odd occasion too. Not a nice feeling.

[Motherwoman]

Hi All,

Glad to know I'm not alone, nothing dire happened yet. I'm going up the allotment in a minute, first time for about 3 weeks and work pressure has been extremely high this term, dealing with complaints and grievances etc as well as normal work, it can get me down sometimes.

I'll let you know if allotment therapy works.

MW

[Motherwoman]

Well that's better!

200 Broad beans in. Bit late I know but it's been mild so should get away with it, at least I had the soil all prepped up ready. And then a bit of digging. Not too bad considering the rain we've had, but then I'm up the top of a slope over stoney soil.

So feeling more the thing now! Good to get away from emails and phones...

MW

[oldherbaceous]

Dear Motherwoman, glad you feel a little brighter, sounds as if it was overload. The trouble with it is, when you are used to doing loads of things, it's a job to know where the cut off zone is, and the body being a funny old thing, has different ways of letting us know something isn't quite right.

[Motherwoman]

Thanks OH, suffering from an excess of work I think. Balance is tricky when your office is in your home.

[Motherwoman]

Well, who was saying about premonitions around funny feelings? Good surprise just walked in my door as my eldest announced he was getting married. I had an emotional moment.....

[Ricard with an H]

I also had a strange feeling this morning, something needed doing but I was topside of all my jobs, then it came to me in a flash.

It was a perfect day for digging-in the grazing rye so I dragged a spade and turned a cod over. Perfect day for digging though unfortunately I don't have a days digging in me so I've done half of it and now I'm prepping the veg for tonights dinner for two.

Only two weeks back I planted broccoli into claggy soil, far too heavy for me for digging but today it's dry and breaking up as I turn it over. I may get another hour in after the veg prep.

So what was it that loomed over my thoughts this morning ? it wasn't grey and it wasn't brightness. Something poking me in the ribs as a reminder that picking the perfect day halves the work-load.

[PLUMPUDDING]

For a moment I thought you were referring to "Black Friday" another stupid import from America. I made a point of not going to the shops or buying anything. It all sounds rather ominous and from the pictures of idiots straddling flat screen TVs in the papers I'm glad I stayed in.

Hope you are feeling back to normal now MW. I think we need a good dose of sunshine to cheer us all up. We seem to have been in fog and low cloud for most of the past week.

[Ricard with an H]

I think we need a good dose of sunshine to cheer us all up. We seem to have been in fog and low cloud for most of the past week.

We had a few days of clear skies and wow, doesn't it raise your spirit.

Today I woke up with another-something bothering me. I was irritable and fortunately home-alone. I had some painting to do though didn't want to tackle it because I was irritable.

Cloudy-skies and drizzle is what we have today, is that it ?

Clear skies on Wednesday for us so more digging, hopefully I won't be irritable tomorrow because I need to get this painting done. It's in a corridor accessing the gallery above our lounge, low ceiling and a narrow passage means patience and doing a bit at a time so I don't sit on wet paint.

Looking at my plot of raised beds makes me sad this time of year even though I do have stuff surviving and stuff growing it all looks so sad. I'm afraid I'll always associate autumn with loosing my lovely Molly.